| MOVED. http://getsexywithit.livejournal.com
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| Just when i needed you most,
You faded away. |
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| You're so fucking special. I wish i was special.
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| What is change?
Something i want. Something i need.
You say i changed, i say "I wish".
Last year, i spoke a countless number of times, defending myself, insisting that there would be a change in my life, in my outlook towards life. There was, for a short while. Then, nothing. Many many times i can tell myself everything'll get better, when i really think that it's impossible. My thoughts arent straights, everything's jumping everywhere. I'm so upset yet so happy, my lifes become some strage sad routine.
Im so worried for you im so worried for me. Im worried for my friends for my results. nothing i want i get, and nothing i get i want. I dont know if youre fine or not fine. Everybody says youre not, but why does it seem as if you are? Why do you tell me you are? I wanna dig into your soul, uncover and dissolve everyone of your problems. But i cant do anything but worry if i cant even get to first base. And boy, do i worry. Im so worried and so scared and so cowardly, and well, fake and i wanna die but youll be really sad if i do and i dont know if you;; be angry if you read this cause youll think im being immature or something but i promise after i let this out i;ll be fine.
AND I NEED TO STUDY. Retaining/getting kicked out is squashing my brain and im stressing out to the core, and i have the symptoms to prove it (counsellor's tryna give me anti-depressants), but it's my problem because i didnt study in the beginning of the year. I gotta go and study now. bye.
Bottom line, i miss you.
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| Why so angsty honey?
Cheer upppppp (((((:
I love youuuuuu (:
Meet you soon!
Love love! |
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